lot of sh*t to finish. still hoping that i get exempted. want to graduate. hahaha!
eyes hurt. something stuck in my eye. my goodness.
(post that looks like a twitter feed. love twitter. haha.)
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
basketbol muna!
my man, D-Wade, has flipped the league upside-down with acts of stupendous will to win and undeniable ability to put the ball in the hoop.i've been playing a LOT this weekend, which means that the time allotted for reading materials is cut down! haha! my teammates have been coming together right now, a little more practice and we would be back where we were a few years ago. we're gonna make a killing in the summer leagues. i can guarantee it. :D
3 things we need to do every game:
1. defend
2. execute
3. focus
the only way we can lose is by going up against really strong teams. you know, overmatched. haha! but i'm really excited about the coming league. wish us luck! ^_^
Friday, March 13, 2009
whew!
finally! i am done with my thesis. but i still have a long way to go. so much to read! papers to do and exams to pass with flying colors! my goodness! i hope i can do it. i still have a summer basketball league to worry about. whew! :D
Saturday, March 07, 2009
post number 160
sadya kong ikinalulungkot na napakatanga ng aming butihing mayor. nasayang lamang ang aking boto sa kanya, sa buong akala ko na may maibibigay siyang bagong paglilingkod sa aking minamahal na Imus.
kaya simula noon ay hindi na ako magiging hunghang sa pagboto. dapat kilalanin ng mabuti ang lahat ng mga kandidato. humanda sya sa akin sa 2010.
(inspired by a phone conversation i heard.)
kaya simula noon ay hindi na ako magiging hunghang sa pagboto. dapat kilalanin ng mabuti ang lahat ng mga kandidato. humanda sya sa akin sa 2010.
(inspired by a phone conversation i heard.)
Sunday, March 01, 2009
on being normal
i feel relieved typing this post right now. for one, this would be another addition to those prophetic posts (or motivational posts, whatever i may call them depending on whoever asks me) that litter my blog whenever i wanted to do something or wanted to change something about myself.
for the longest time, it has been my greatest joy to please other people, or offer them help, or just be there for the sake of having someone who always can lend a helping hand or a listening ear. while being engaged in such a noble cause, events have happened which have set off things (and thoughts) in motion.
for the last few days, i took a long, hard look at myself.
part of me loathes being in this situation. not being stable, desperately fighting to keep a dream alive (sometimes even having thoughts of abandoning the dream altogether), punishing myself because things did not work out and worse, not having the balls to admit that i was wrong in some aspects and therefore being stuck in this confusing situation.
don't get me wrong, i love my undergraduate course, but the hard part is selling it as a preparatory course for medicine. that, and i'm not really good at selling (and interviews).
but the bigger part of me sees something else. if i had indeed pursued my dream selfishly, then i would not have met the wonderful people i've encountered in college (and my most wonderful girlfriend), and then my dream would not have a concrete purpose (from being a misconstrued version of what a male nurse was to being able to serve people who have not had any medical attention).
my interviewer was right. i did not cover my tracks. i misled myself into attaining something that i could not attain. my mind is still in conflict right now. had i been too little, too late? or was getting there really not really meant for me?
for days i thought i was going crazy. so many ideas coming in and out of my head. trying hard to balance regret and rationality as i tried to get out the mental traps i have set for myself. too much thinking indeed, and i would really not be able to get out of this if i did not stop myself from bullishly going forward without taking anything out of this.
yes, i know odds are stacked against me. i'll have to fight through a lot of these forthcoming years of my life. but still, i know i can do it. not in a omniscient kind of way, no swagger this time.
by going through this, i now know that i need to be humble enough to accept my mistakes and shortcomings in order to move on with my life. i have become tired of being normal. i feel that my skills have deteriorated somehow. i feel like i have underperformed. i feel the aura of mediocrity surrounding me. all of this has to change now.
now is the time to kick some major ass. time to prove the doubters wrong. i do have a lot of potential within me but now, more than ever, is the time to realize it. unleash the tiger kumbaga.
no more timidity and reluctance. no more nice guys here. i'm going into the real life and i am going to give some ass whoopin to those who get in my way.
the killer instinct should be there.
leave no stone unturned.
try to get better everyday.
lick the blood of those whom have fallen in your hands.
excellence should be seen in every work.
be humbled, and learn from defeat.
be jubilant and thankful in victory.
and of course, have fun. and take everybody else up with you. no sense in being Superman if you can't lift a 100 people, right? ;)
for the longest time, it has been my greatest joy to please other people, or offer them help, or just be there for the sake of having someone who always can lend a helping hand or a listening ear. while being engaged in such a noble cause, events have happened which have set off things (and thoughts) in motion.
for the last few days, i took a long, hard look at myself.
part of me loathes being in this situation. not being stable, desperately fighting to keep a dream alive (sometimes even having thoughts of abandoning the dream altogether), punishing myself because things did not work out and worse, not having the balls to admit that i was wrong in some aspects and therefore being stuck in this confusing situation.
don't get me wrong, i love my undergraduate course, but the hard part is selling it as a preparatory course for medicine. that, and i'm not really good at selling (and interviews).
but the bigger part of me sees something else. if i had indeed pursued my dream selfishly, then i would not have met the wonderful people i've encountered in college (and my most wonderful girlfriend), and then my dream would not have a concrete purpose (from being a misconstrued version of what a male nurse was to being able to serve people who have not had any medical attention).
my interviewer was right. i did not cover my tracks. i misled myself into attaining something that i could not attain. my mind is still in conflict right now. had i been too little, too late? or was getting there really not really meant for me?
for days i thought i was going crazy. so many ideas coming in and out of my head. trying hard to balance regret and rationality as i tried to get out the mental traps i have set for myself. too much thinking indeed, and i would really not be able to get out of this if i did not stop myself from bullishly going forward without taking anything out of this.
yes, i know odds are stacked against me. i'll have to fight through a lot of these forthcoming years of my life. but still, i know i can do it. not in a omniscient kind of way, no swagger this time.
by going through this, i now know that i need to be humble enough to accept my mistakes and shortcomings in order to move on with my life. i have become tired of being normal. i feel that my skills have deteriorated somehow. i feel like i have underperformed. i feel the aura of mediocrity surrounding me. all of this has to change now.
now is the time to kick some major ass. time to prove the doubters wrong. i do have a lot of potential within me but now, more than ever, is the time to realize it. unleash the tiger kumbaga.
no more timidity and reluctance. no more nice guys here. i'm going into the real life and i am going to give some ass whoopin to those who get in my way.
the killer instinct should be there.
leave no stone unturned.
try to get better everyday.
lick the blood of those whom have fallen in your hands.
excellence should be seen in every work.
be humbled, and learn from defeat.
be jubilant and thankful in victory.
and of course, have fun. and take everybody else up with you. no sense in being Superman if you can't lift a 100 people, right? ;)
Sunday, February 22, 2009
in the end, life really ain't that bad
somewhere in the back of my mind, i am breathing a sigh of relief. or as Spongebob Squarepants calls it, those allegorical personifications used to illustrate the concept of thought (yep, those mini-mes running around my head) are breathing the collective sigh.
i didn't really lose everything after i thought i lost it. my mom always told me to be prepared, and yes it looks like i would be treading the path not followed by everyone. you know, when you thought everything is already figured out, the monkeys come out and mess it up. but again it should be taken as a chance, to prove to yourself and to everyone around you that it can be done.
and that's the best thing to do: show everyone you made it.
i loved what happened to me this past week. i've been very productive, proactive and happy. i am now engaging myself in projects which are of a lot of value to me, and i would make it a point to see them get done on time. i hope everything works out. i'd love to go out of UP with a bang, while saying to myself that i did something great and of value.
i love UP. i loved the institution that has molded me into who i am right now, and of which has taught me the values of service, sacrifice and excellence all for the greater good. i met a lot of people who have had a profound influence on me, and still met a lot of people who act like jerks and asses.
but still, UP has been good to me. and life too, as of late, has been good. i hope i can ride this wave all the way through graduation and into med school (UE or LaSalle? red or green? hahaha!).
till then, enjoy life! :D
i didn't really lose everything after i thought i lost it. my mom always told me to be prepared, and yes it looks like i would be treading the path not followed by everyone. you know, when you thought everything is already figured out, the monkeys come out and mess it up. but again it should be taken as a chance, to prove to yourself and to everyone around you that it can be done.
and that's the best thing to do: show everyone you made it.
i loved what happened to me this past week. i've been very productive, proactive and happy. i am now engaging myself in projects which are of a lot of value to me, and i would make it a point to see them get done on time. i hope everything works out. i'd love to go out of UP with a bang, while saying to myself that i did something great and of value.
i love UP. i loved the institution that has molded me into who i am right now, and of which has taught me the values of service, sacrifice and excellence all for the greater good. i met a lot of people who have had a profound influence on me, and still met a lot of people who act like jerks and asses.
but still, UP has been good to me. and life too, as of late, has been good. i hope i can ride this wave all the way through graduation and into med school (UE or LaSalle? red or green? hahaha!).
till then, enjoy life! :D
Saturday, February 07, 2009
its back
i feel kind of funny writing this. but somehow its the relief that's getting into me now which makes my day.
a week ago i bottomed out. i didn't know what to do after that.
then things looked up. somehow i've had a glimmer of hope.
let's make sure this one works. ok?
a week ago i bottomed out. i didn't know what to do after that.
then things looked up. somehow i've had a glimmer of hope.
let's make sure this one works. ok?
Saturday, January 31, 2009
you'll never catch me dead with this one
I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
- "What a Catch, Donnie" - Fallout Boy
Jubilant in victory, gracious in defeat was what some old men say..
yet in my whole life i never really liked swallowing losing. nor showed any grace after that.
so in the end, yeah, f*ck losing.
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
- "What a Catch, Donnie" - Fallout Boy
Jubilant in victory, gracious in defeat was what some old men say..
yet in my whole life i never really liked swallowing losing. nor showed any grace after that.
so in the end, yeah, f*ck losing.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
me. or so i think.
i'm really confused. ever since i've taken those psychology and career aptitude tests i would always score high ratings in creativity, most probably described as spontaneous and extroverted, and have a successful career in the arts.
heck, when i took this online test about which medical specialization i was most fitted to take, cosmetic surgery came in a landslide! unbelievable. those career psych tests i took were the most disagreeable pundits, since they suggested that i had a skill set completely opposite of a doctor's.
i really don't know. maybe that was life's way of telling me that i could not be a doctor. i'm in a non pre-medical course (although in a lot of ways, it solidified my reasons of pursuing medicine), and my NMAT results aren't in yet (the waiting is killing me!) thus another day passes with me imagining myself losing it because i did not make the cut, or breathing a sigh of relief because everything went my way. either which situation happens, it's getting in my head pretty hard right now. anything that happens is tough to swallow, but i guess i'd just have to live through it. di ko trip magpakamatay para lang takasan lahat to eh.
i'd have to admit, a lot of things i know about myself come from what people tell me. its some kind of a third person way, like a looking glass self. or some theory to that effect (i'm sorry madam inton but i forgot my comm3 already).
i don't actually like seeing myself in the mirror. or perhaps i lack the ability of knowing what i can do, because in my senior year i've actually managed to surprise myself quite a number of times because i was able to do things i did not know i was capable of doing.
ignorante lang ba talaga ako?
it's kinda crazy, but i never wanted to be someone who only consistently underachieves. someone to be written off as an individual with talent that didn't make it.. i want to make it. i know i can.
so its make or break time for me. a lot of things hang on that goddamn NMAT result. basically my whole life that is. haha! good luck to that.
heck, when i took this online test about which medical specialization i was most fitted to take, cosmetic surgery came in a landslide! unbelievable. those career psych tests i took were the most disagreeable pundits, since they suggested that i had a skill set completely opposite of a doctor's.
i really don't know. maybe that was life's way of telling me that i could not be a doctor. i'm in a non pre-medical course (although in a lot of ways, it solidified my reasons of pursuing medicine), and my NMAT results aren't in yet (the waiting is killing me!) thus another day passes with me imagining myself losing it because i did not make the cut, or breathing a sigh of relief because everything went my way. either which situation happens, it's getting in my head pretty hard right now. anything that happens is tough to swallow, but i guess i'd just have to live through it. di ko trip magpakamatay para lang takasan lahat to eh.
i'd have to admit, a lot of things i know about myself come from what people tell me. its some kind of a third person way, like a looking glass self. or some theory to that effect (i'm sorry madam inton but i forgot my comm3 already).
i don't actually like seeing myself in the mirror. or perhaps i lack the ability of knowing what i can do, because in my senior year i've actually managed to surprise myself quite a number of times because i was able to do things i did not know i was capable of doing.
ignorante lang ba talaga ako?
it's kinda crazy, but i never wanted to be someone who only consistently underachieves. someone to be written off as an individual with talent that didn't make it.. i want to make it. i know i can.
so its make or break time for me. a lot of things hang on that goddamn NMAT result. basically my whole life that is. haha! good luck to that.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
PC ko. haha.
this is my PC. it has been with me for less than a month (assembly date: December 27, 2008). it was a late Xmas gift from my two doting parents. sure all my Xmas money went into this one, and with that financial capital i was assured that the specs i wanted were the ones they were going to get..
and yes, my PC breathes fire. wahahaha!! that's just how fast it is. but i'm not yet done. i'm still saving up for the new DVD-writer and another 2gb RAM stick to complete my new computer.
the best thing about this one is that its totally mine! no more nagging from the others about using the PC. nobody's going to be taking a bite unto this chunk of technological goodness other than me. :))
the picture on the left is my new lcd monitor. 17 inches lang. hahaha! i wanted the 22 or even the 19, but it was too expensive that time. widescreen naman na eh. hehehe! and i'm having a hell of a time watching HD movies and playing HD games. my goodness! hahaha!
i've been waiting for a while to write this blog about my pc. sa wakas napost din! :D
Thursday, January 15, 2009
potato madness among other things
this week has been potato week with me and my girlfriend. we've pigged out with lots and lots of potatoes of the mashed and fried variety. now i'm craving for mcdonalds hash browns!
when my girlfriend gets rid of her cough, next week would be the start of ice cream week. oh my. hahaha!
i'm starting to wear my retainers again. and i had so many things to write on this day, but i forgot almost all of them! haha!
but i did not forget this "activity" that came into my mind earlier in the day when i was brushing my teeth.
i plan to buy an autograph book (yes, the one with "what is love" and "who is your crush") and deviously seek out every girl that i had a crush on or the ones (wow may s!) who liked me. tapos pasusulatin ko sila! ayos! :))
yun na. tapos na to. :D
when my girlfriend gets rid of her cough, next week would be the start of ice cream week. oh my. hahaha!
i'm starting to wear my retainers again. and i had so many things to write on this day, but i forgot almost all of them! haha!
but i did not forget this "activity" that came into my mind earlier in the day when i was brushing my teeth.
i plan to buy an autograph book (yes, the one with "what is love" and "who is your crush") and deviously seek out every girl that i had a crush on or the ones (wow may s!) who liked me. tapos pasusulatin ko sila! ayos! :))
yun na. tapos na to. :D
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
blog muna
Wednesday na pala. 2 weeks na simula ng magpalit ang taon. blog ulit ng walang kwenta para masabi kong may ginagawa ako rito sa pc.
pinagbawalan ko kasi ang sarili ko na maglaro pag weekdays. sa sabado at linggo na ulit. hehehe.. pag weekdays at pasukan, kailangan gumawa ng thesis at case study. mahirap na ang magahol sa oras.
pero sa ngayon, mag-aaral muna ako para sa exam. sarap talaga magtype rito sa bagong keyboard ko. nag-eenjoy akong maige sa bagong pc. hehehe! sakto talagang may bago na akong kaakibat sa paggawa at pagtapos (dapat lang) ng aking mga gawaing pampamantasan.
nakapag-gupit na ako ng kuko. sa wakas, dahil medyo 1 week na akong di nakakapaggupit ng kuko. bilis nila kasing humaba eh. hehehe..
anlamig. dulot ito ng climate change. siguro mas malala sa ibang bansa ngayon. dito sa amin nahihirapan ang mga tao sa lamig. pero welcome naman ito kahit papano, kaso mahirap din dahil di nila alam na may sakit ang planeta natin. tayo-tayo rin naman ang mahihirapan pagdating ng araw. DAPAT ay may gawin na tayo para pigilan to.
bad trip yung site ng DepEd. walang kwenta, mag eemail na dapat ako biglang down yung directory nila. hmpf.
in lighter news, naglaro ako ng bbol kanina. kahit talo kami ok lang, maganda naman ang naging laro ko. masarap sa pakiramdam. tagal ko ring di nakalaro e. :)
so yun muna. bukas ulit!
pinagbawalan ko kasi ang sarili ko na maglaro pag weekdays. sa sabado at linggo na ulit. hehehe.. pag weekdays at pasukan, kailangan gumawa ng thesis at case study. mahirap na ang magahol sa oras.
pero sa ngayon, mag-aaral muna ako para sa exam. sarap talaga magtype rito sa bagong keyboard ko. nag-eenjoy akong maige sa bagong pc. hehehe! sakto talagang may bago na akong kaakibat sa paggawa at pagtapos (dapat lang) ng aking mga gawaing pampamantasan.
nakapag-gupit na ako ng kuko. sa wakas, dahil medyo 1 week na akong di nakakapaggupit ng kuko. bilis nila kasing humaba eh. hehehe..
anlamig. dulot ito ng climate change. siguro mas malala sa ibang bansa ngayon. dito sa amin nahihirapan ang mga tao sa lamig. pero welcome naman ito kahit papano, kaso mahirap din dahil di nila alam na may sakit ang planeta natin. tayo-tayo rin naman ang mahihirapan pagdating ng araw. DAPAT ay may gawin na tayo para pigilan to.
bad trip yung site ng DepEd. walang kwenta, mag eemail na dapat ako biglang down yung directory nila. hmpf.
in lighter news, naglaro ako ng bbol kanina. kahit talo kami ok lang, maganda naman ang naging laro ko. masarap sa pakiramdam. tagal ko ring di nakalaro e. :)
so yun muna. bukas ulit!
Monday, January 12, 2009
hmmmm
napansin kong paiba-iba pala ako ng font sa mga blog post.
para maging mas maayos at consistent, TREBUCHET na lang lagi ang gagamitin kong font style. para di na magulo. di masyadong maliit. tamang-tama lang yung size para mabasa. :)
(napapost ulit kasi nasarapan magtype. hahaha!)
para maging mas maayos at consistent, TREBUCHET na lang lagi ang gagamitin kong font style. para di na magulo. di masyadong maliit. tamang-tama lang yung size para mabasa. :)
(napapost ulit kasi nasarapan magtype. hahaha!)
new entry!
2009 na pala. di pa rin ako nag-update simula nung huling post ko.
palibasa masaya kasi yung huling post ko. ngayon masaya pa rin ako.
nabilhan ko na ng keyboard yung bagong pc ko. at PC ko na talaga sya. may sari-sarili nang mga computer at laptop ang mga tao rito sa bahay. at kakatapos ko lang magnetwork ng mga computer dito kaya wala na sanang aabala sa akin kung magpapaprint. hehehe!
ayun, at nasimulan ko na rin mag data gathering para sa thesis ko. talagang pinili ko lang yung barangay namin kasi ayoko nang lumayo.
sarap pala magtype rito sa bagong keyboard na binili ko. hehehe! medyo mas maliit nga lang sya kesa run sa luma pero ok lang. next na bibilhin ko ay dvd-writer naman. i already have a model in mind. kailangan na lang ng pambili. hehehe!
malapit na yung NMAT result ilabas! hay! sana makuha ko yung pinakaasam-asam kong score. :)
so there, ok naman ang buhay. dvd-writer na lang at RAM masaya na ako sa pc. tapos ok pa naman yung mga resulta ng mga exam ko. matataas naman. hehehe! salamat po sa maganda at mabiyayang buhay Lord! sana maging matagumpay din ang 2009 ko. :D
post number 150 na pala to! ibig sabihin ba nito ang konti ko lang magpost? hehehe..
palibasa masaya kasi yung huling post ko. ngayon masaya pa rin ako.
nabilhan ko na ng keyboard yung bagong pc ko. at PC ko na talaga sya. may sari-sarili nang mga computer at laptop ang mga tao rito sa bahay. at kakatapos ko lang magnetwork ng mga computer dito kaya wala na sanang aabala sa akin kung magpapaprint. hehehe!
ayun, at nasimulan ko na rin mag data gathering para sa thesis ko. talagang pinili ko lang yung barangay namin kasi ayoko nang lumayo.
sarap pala magtype rito sa bagong keyboard na binili ko. hehehe! medyo mas maliit nga lang sya kesa run sa luma pero ok lang. next na bibilhin ko ay dvd-writer naman. i already have a model in mind. kailangan na lang ng pambili. hehehe!
malapit na yung NMAT result ilabas! hay! sana makuha ko yung pinakaasam-asam kong score. :)
so there, ok naman ang buhay. dvd-writer na lang at RAM masaya na ako sa pc. tapos ok pa naman yung mga resulta ng mga exam ko. matataas naman. hehehe! salamat po sa maganda at mabiyayang buhay Lord! sana maging matagumpay din ang 2009 ko. :D
post number 150 na pala to! ibig sabihin ba nito ang konti ko lang magpost? hehehe..
Saturday, December 27, 2008
it's two for one tonight
in one day, almost all of my problems got solved.
first off, i got my brand-spankin new CPU! complete with all the specs i wanted. now the only thing i lack is the time to download and play all of the games that i have been fantasizing for quite a while now. we also got a new lcd monitor, so now i can watch movies with booming sound and HDTV quality. haha! :P
then, i got myself a globe sim for free, care of the promo from SM dept. store. funny thing is, my girlfriend's number and my new one both start with 0915 and have three 7s in them. sooo cute!
i still need to fix the hard drive issues and figure out how to manage our new wireless router. haha! till next time!
and oh, i hope you have a blessed Happy New Year! :D
first off, i got my brand-spankin new CPU! complete with all the specs i wanted. now the only thing i lack is the time to download and play all of the games that i have been fantasizing for quite a while now. we also got a new lcd monitor, so now i can watch movies with booming sound and HDTV quality. haha! :P
then, i got myself a globe sim for free, care of the promo from SM dept. store. funny thing is, my girlfriend's number and my new one both start with 0915 and have three 7s in them. sooo cute!
i still need to fix the hard drive issues and figure out how to manage our new wireless router. haha! till next time!
and oh, i hope you have a blessed Happy New Year! :D
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
its the most wonderful time of the year
it was supposed to be a very Merry Christmas for me. but as of December 21, events that really sucked kind of ticked me way off and thus the enjoyment that Christmas was supposed to bring wasn't really that felt anymore.
let me count the reasons:
reason number 1:
today marks the 3rd day that the Globe service number 2870 has not responded to the zillions of texts appropriately typed "Unlitxt80" to my phone. at first i thought it was just a network problem, but it seems everyone around me except for myself has now been registered to the unlimited texting service offered by globe.
this led me to the conclusion that my sim is the culprit and the only ways to deal with it would be either to break it in f*cking half and buy a new one. so for now i am forced to utilize the sulitxt promo and just let my remaining load balance dry up before i change numbers again.
reason number 2:
CPU situation. as of now i do not honestly think that my parents would be giving me funds to buy a new computer. with that fact, any idea to buy new shoes and shirts after Christmas would be thrown out of the window. they have suggested that i try to save up for the new PC, and that is really what i intend to do. and if i succeed, NO ONE but me gets to touch the PC. i don't really care about them anymore, so long as i can build my own PC and use it. i don't really want to get stuck unto a laptop that crashes when you open more than 2 tabs in Firefox.
reason number 3:
bad dreams. well, for 3 days every time i slept, i would always dream of bad things or bad/embarrassing situations. thankfully, that episode is over and i can go on with my life now.
as bad as it may seem, i still have found things which have made life better for me in this period of time.
1. it's vacation time! no school sh*t to worry about. not until after new year.
2. basketball. i may have gotten better in playing. the shots have not been dropping yet, but it seems that my defense has improved, and i somehow added about 1 or 2 inches in my vertical leap. this may be a product of the leg stretching that i do every morning or maybe i just got a little lighter. i am now in the process of getting some post moves so i can become a better all-around player.
3. SIMBANG GABI complete! for the 2nd year i have managed to wake up at 3am to attend morning masses for 9 days. i wish for more blessings to come for next year, just as good as this year has come for me, or maybe ever better. :)
though life sucks right now, i'll never lose hope for things to get better. maybe i should remember what that priest was saying during simbang gabi. a little patience could go a long way. i don't really think there is really a feasible solution to end the little problems i have been encountering this holiday season, but i believe that a little more patience in my part can go a long way.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL! IT'S PARTY TIME! :D
let me count the reasons:
reason number 1:
today marks the 3rd day that the Globe service number 2870 has not responded to the zillions of texts appropriately typed "Unlitxt80" to my phone. at first i thought it was just a network problem, but it seems everyone around me except for myself has now been registered to the unlimited texting service offered by globe.
this led me to the conclusion that my sim is the culprit and the only ways to deal with it would be either to break it in f*cking half and buy a new one. so for now i am forced to utilize the sulitxt promo and just let my remaining load balance dry up before i change numbers again.
reason number 2:
CPU situation. as of now i do not honestly think that my parents would be giving me funds to buy a new computer. with that fact, any idea to buy new shoes and shirts after Christmas would be thrown out of the window. they have suggested that i try to save up for the new PC, and that is really what i intend to do. and if i succeed, NO ONE but me gets to touch the PC. i don't really care about them anymore, so long as i can build my own PC and use it. i don't really want to get stuck unto a laptop that crashes when you open more than 2 tabs in Firefox.
reason number 3:
bad dreams. well, for 3 days every time i slept, i would always dream of bad things or bad/embarrassing situations. thankfully, that episode is over and i can go on with my life now.
as bad as it may seem, i still have found things which have made life better for me in this period of time.
1. it's vacation time! no school sh*t to worry about. not until after new year.
2. basketball. i may have gotten better in playing. the shots have not been dropping yet, but it seems that my defense has improved, and i somehow added about 1 or 2 inches in my vertical leap. this may be a product of the leg stretching that i do every morning or maybe i just got a little lighter. i am now in the process of getting some post moves so i can become a better all-around player.
3. SIMBANG GABI complete! for the 2nd year i have managed to wake up at 3am to attend morning masses for 9 days. i wish for more blessings to come for next year, just as good as this year has come for me, or maybe ever better. :)
though life sucks right now, i'll never lose hope for things to get better. maybe i should remember what that priest was saying during simbang gabi. a little patience could go a long way. i don't really think there is really a feasible solution to end the little problems i have been encountering this holiday season, but i believe that a little more patience in my part can go a long way.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL! IT'S PARTY TIME! :D
Monday, December 01, 2008
basketball
i'm tired right now. but somehow, i feel alive.
that's how it is whenever i step-off the court after a few pick-up games. for many reasons, whenever i don't play the game i become really sluggish and well, sometimes incomplete. playing ball invigorates me, jumpstarts my body and my mind. i can't really live somewhere that does not have a court. believe me, i would go crazy if that happened.
i noticed that i talk a lot of things in my personal space, but i have not discussed a lot about how the game has affected me. the game hasn't been always good to me. since i was little when my cousins who came from the province taught me how to dribble, shoot and pass, all i ever wanted was to become good at it. basketball the game taught me how to be competitive. but being small and skinny back then, i was not really the one that i pictured myself playing the game. in short, i sucked. haha!
but luckily, i had a set of basketball crazy friends and classmates who picked me up, so there. i got a little better every year, and i now made it a point to add something to my game, no matter how little it is, from defending better to reading opponent sets and setting better screens, i work hard to make my game more complete. it also helped that competition was good, so i was able to measure myself against them. though it is still hard for me to see the kinks in my game so i rely a lot on the inputs i get from friends. so far my shot is already falling, so i don't really have to hear my teammates whining whenever i pull-up. haha! it's more of being aggressive in attacking the basket, getting rebounds and defending the opponent so that they do not get the easy shot.
so there ends my small, disconcerted, patchy effort to talk about the game. i wrote a scouting report about myself some years ago, i can't find it but i should say i have come far from being that player who could only go to his left and has a shaky shot. :D
that's how it is whenever i step-off the court after a few pick-up games. for many reasons, whenever i don't play the game i become really sluggish and well, sometimes incomplete. playing ball invigorates me, jumpstarts my body and my mind. i can't really live somewhere that does not have a court. believe me, i would go crazy if that happened.
i noticed that i talk a lot of things in my personal space, but i have not discussed a lot about how the game has affected me. the game hasn't been always good to me. since i was little when my cousins who came from the province taught me how to dribble, shoot and pass, all i ever wanted was to become good at it. basketball the game taught me how to be competitive. but being small and skinny back then, i was not really the one that i pictured myself playing the game. in short, i sucked. haha!
but luckily, i had a set of basketball crazy friends and classmates who picked me up, so there. i got a little better every year, and i now made it a point to add something to my game, no matter how little it is, from defending better to reading opponent sets and setting better screens, i work hard to make my game more complete. it also helped that competition was good, so i was able to measure myself against them. though it is still hard for me to see the kinks in my game so i rely a lot on the inputs i get from friends. so far my shot is already falling, so i don't really have to hear my teammates whining whenever i pull-up. haha! it's more of being aggressive in attacking the basket, getting rebounds and defending the opponent so that they do not get the easy shot.
so there ends my small, disconcerted, patchy effort to talk about the game. i wrote a scouting report about myself some years ago, i can't find it but i should say i have come far from being that player who could only go to his left and has a shaky shot. :D
Sunday, November 30, 2008
funeral for a friend
it is now official. i now have one dead friend.
i heard the news of his death a day after it happened. right after i went home, i had my mom go with me to his wake. he was a friend since my preschool days. his mom and my mom were good friends, so my mom was shocked when i told her the sad news.
as we went to the wake, i saw almost everyone who were parts of my early childhood. to make it short, i saw all of my elementary batchmates. almost everyone was there during the four day wake. we went ahead to see him, and that was i think the first time i saw tears from my mother in a long while. i can't really describe her relationship with his mom, but what i do know is that they are really, really good friends and that his mom was our official family pediatrician so i saw them a lot during my childhood years. at first, i really did not feel anything. yes, i was saddened and all, but seeing everyone else and remembering the good times pretty much preoccupied my mind during the wake. i knew it had to be more than this, but i guess the fact that he has truly departed was not sinking yet in my mind.
then came the funeral.
i really did not know how, but hearing the priest emphasize that of the 3 dead people that were to be undergoing necrological service today, my friend was the youngest. i think that part really struck me. how come a strong 20-year old individual come down so fast and so sudden? how can someone who is just at the cusp of enjoying the world have his life abruptly cut? and so the feeling of loss made itself felt. i was crying. crying hard. i was mourning. i felt the collective grief that gripped that whole cathedral that afternoon. so this is how it feels to lose a friend. it hurts. and somehow i find it kind of regretful that his death came at a very suprising time.
they say that death comes like a thief in the night. adhering to that, death came and stole one of our dear friends away. it was encouraging to see almost everyone make it, but if we wanted to get together, all of us, i do not think it's really fun to get together in a wake. i hope we all get through this. somewhere, somehow we can see him smiling, being jolly and having fun because we would all be secure. it also helps to know that so many people came and saw everything from the wake to the funeral. it is a very, very crushing event, but afterwards everyone of us would be asked to move on..
but let us not forget that we have the capacity to improve ourselves and look back at this experience as an eye-opener for taking life for granted. personally, i did not think that dying this early cannot happen, yet it did. this now poses a challenge to all of us to take a step back and appreciate everything that has been given to us.
we can always sugarcoat everything, cloud them with fruity and colorful words to make them easier to bear. but sometimes, it takes one deep breath and a strong will to face what happened. a loss is still a loss, no matter what anybody says.
so, may you rest in peace pareng nikko. pahinga ka lang dyan, antagal-tagal mo nang pinapagod ang sarili mo. alam naming babantayan mo pa rin kaming lahat. kahit nasaan ka pa man.
i heard the news of his death a day after it happened. right after i went home, i had my mom go with me to his wake. he was a friend since my preschool days. his mom and my mom were good friends, so my mom was shocked when i told her the sad news.
as we went to the wake, i saw almost everyone who were parts of my early childhood. to make it short, i saw all of my elementary batchmates. almost everyone was there during the four day wake. we went ahead to see him, and that was i think the first time i saw tears from my mother in a long while. i can't really describe her relationship with his mom, but what i do know is that they are really, really good friends and that his mom was our official family pediatrician so i saw them a lot during my childhood years. at first, i really did not feel anything. yes, i was saddened and all, but seeing everyone else and remembering the good times pretty much preoccupied my mind during the wake. i knew it had to be more than this, but i guess the fact that he has truly departed was not sinking yet in my mind.
then came the funeral.
i really did not know how, but hearing the priest emphasize that of the 3 dead people that were to be undergoing necrological service today, my friend was the youngest. i think that part really struck me. how come a strong 20-year old individual come down so fast and so sudden? how can someone who is just at the cusp of enjoying the world have his life abruptly cut? and so the feeling of loss made itself felt. i was crying. crying hard. i was mourning. i felt the collective grief that gripped that whole cathedral that afternoon. so this is how it feels to lose a friend. it hurts. and somehow i find it kind of regretful that his death came at a very suprising time.
they say that death comes like a thief in the night. adhering to that, death came and stole one of our dear friends away. it was encouraging to see almost everyone make it, but if we wanted to get together, all of us, i do not think it's really fun to get together in a wake. i hope we all get through this. somewhere, somehow we can see him smiling, being jolly and having fun because we would all be secure. it also helps to know that so many people came and saw everything from the wake to the funeral. it is a very, very crushing event, but afterwards everyone of us would be asked to move on..
but let us not forget that we have the capacity to improve ourselves and look back at this experience as an eye-opener for taking life for granted. personally, i did not think that dying this early cannot happen, yet it did. this now poses a challenge to all of us to take a step back and appreciate everything that has been given to us.
we can always sugarcoat everything, cloud them with fruity and colorful words to make them easier to bear. but sometimes, it takes one deep breath and a strong will to face what happened. a loss is still a loss, no matter what anybody says.
so, may you rest in peace pareng nikko. pahinga ka lang dyan, antagal-tagal mo nang pinapagod ang sarili mo. alam naming babantayan mo pa rin kaming lahat. kahit nasaan ka pa man.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
power down!
the reason i wasn't really online the past couple of days (more than a week i say) is because my beloved cpu is still under repair. it was supposed to be only a routine reinstall of windows, but suddenly the power supply gave in and it would not turn on. i has really not bugged me since i took it upon myself as a chance to do things other than shell up to my pc.
i went out, socialized, watched movies, spent time with the girl i love, improved my game (now that's an achievement) and currently enjoyed this old-school lifestyle having no technology around me except for my mobile phone.
i really had a great week, and the only glitch i could think of is that of my cpu not returning home. but i know everything would be set right eventually. for the meantime, it would be best for me to focus on things other than my computer.
let me talk a little about the nba today, since the league has gone through already its first week.
billups-iverson trade:
i really did not think it was serious when my friends told me about in a party i went to, but it was real, and today both players has suited up for their new teams with Iverson losing to the Nets and the Mavs leading Billups' Nuggets in the 3rd Qtr as of this moment.
i think it was a win-win for both teams, since Detroit honcho Joe Dumars wanted to shake the core which many believed has underperformed in the past 3 yrs even though going into the Eastern Conf Finals for six straight years is really nothing to be ashamed about. The Iverson-Anthony experiment of Denver wasn't also getting them past the First Round of the postseason so as it stands, a change of scenery was to take place. Even Iverson knew he was going to be traded because he was already on his contract year and Denver did not really pursue on signing him an extension.
With Iverson, they get a Hall of Fame caliber guy that may give them that scoring punch and superstar factor that Dertroit has managed to live without for years, relying only on the team which featured Billups, Hamilton, Prince and the two Wallaces. He can shoot the ball, break defenses down and run the break. The only problem with that is Detroit may have to give up a lot of defense in the backcourt with the loss of Chauncey. We must remember that Iverson is only 6ft in height, and Detroit has to defend guards like Arenas, Wade and Kobe. Defense has not been part of Iverson's calling card though he may have led the league in steals a couple of years ago, coaches do not like the fact that gambling on defense may cause the offensive player to get a clean shot since a gamble does not really translate into a turnover.
The Nuggets meanwhile, get a lot of defense and shooting from one of the best in the business today, and the good news is Chauncey is still in his prime. It's like having Andre Miller back, because apart from the points and assists, Billups built his name on leading the team that went to six straight Conference Finals. The only problem I see here is that, it may take some time for Chauncey to integrate himself into the Nuggets' system. Good things come with Billups, as Denver now has someone more consistent to back-up their budding star in Carmelo Anthony. The fact that Billups too has come from a system that puts a prime on defense may affect a change in culture in Denver. Like many observers, i feel that to advance into the playoffs, defense must first be improved and with the addition of Billups the Nuggets get a high quality, all star caliber point guard.
update:
Denver leads the Dallas, 83-79, 9:22 left in the 4th.
Miami Heat:
posting a quality win over the Spurs today (though that would be dubious since Parker and Ginobili were out, Parker injured himself in the 1st Qtr.), the Heat or Dwyane Wade actually, have shown that they are back. At last, after the failure that is last season, Wade has come back with gusto. The insane shots, bankers, splits, sidesteps and jumpers are back, and it was fun to watch him kill the Spurs this morning.
i've seen Michael Beasley's game, and i have to say i was impressed. Shawn Marion is not really a fit into the Heat's style. I would like to him being moved for say, Al Harrington (who wants to be traded anyway), a player who can post up and hit the three-ball with ease. Marion is not really a half-court guy, and most of his success comes from running the break. Miami has not really been that set on running teams out of the building, but the versatility he brings is still valued by the team. I think that though he may not be viable on offense, defensively he should bring it for the team. the rebounds, blocks and steals that he can create can effectively lead into transition baskets which can bode well for Marion.
ultimately, the Heat must find success in defense to keep Marion happy. Otherwise, I'd like to see him be moved along with the large sum of money in his contract.
so there ends a blog entry for me. i hope my cpu would be back and that things go the way i would want them to. :D
i went out, socialized, watched movies, spent time with the girl i love, improved my game (now that's an achievement) and currently enjoyed this old-school lifestyle having no technology around me except for my mobile phone.
i really had a great week, and the only glitch i could think of is that of my cpu not returning home. but i know everything would be set right eventually. for the meantime, it would be best for me to focus on things other than my computer.
let me talk a little about the nba today, since the league has gone through already its first week.
billups-iverson trade:
i really did not think it was serious when my friends told me about in a party i went to, but it was real, and today both players has suited up for their new teams with Iverson losing to the Nets and the Mavs leading Billups' Nuggets in the 3rd Qtr as of this moment.
i think it was a win-win for both teams, since Detroit honcho Joe Dumars wanted to shake the core which many believed has underperformed in the past 3 yrs even though going into the Eastern Conf Finals for six straight years is really nothing to be ashamed about. The Iverson-Anthony experiment of Denver wasn't also getting them past the First Round of the postseason so as it stands, a change of scenery was to take place. Even Iverson knew he was going to be traded because he was already on his contract year and Denver did not really pursue on signing him an extension.
With Iverson, they get a Hall of Fame caliber guy that may give them that scoring punch and superstar factor that Dertroit has managed to live without for years, relying only on the team which featured Billups, Hamilton, Prince and the two Wallaces. He can shoot the ball, break defenses down and run the break. The only problem with that is Detroit may have to give up a lot of defense in the backcourt with the loss of Chauncey. We must remember that Iverson is only 6ft in height, and Detroit has to defend guards like Arenas, Wade and Kobe. Defense has not been part of Iverson's calling card though he may have led the league in steals a couple of years ago, coaches do not like the fact that gambling on defense may cause the offensive player to get a clean shot since a gamble does not really translate into a turnover.
The Nuggets meanwhile, get a lot of defense and shooting from one of the best in the business today, and the good news is Chauncey is still in his prime. It's like having Andre Miller back, because apart from the points and assists, Billups built his name on leading the team that went to six straight Conference Finals. The only problem I see here is that, it may take some time for Chauncey to integrate himself into the Nuggets' system. Good things come with Billups, as Denver now has someone more consistent to back-up their budding star in Carmelo Anthony. The fact that Billups too has come from a system that puts a prime on defense may affect a change in culture in Denver. Like many observers, i feel that to advance into the playoffs, defense must first be improved and with the addition of Billups the Nuggets get a high quality, all star caliber point guard.
update:
Denver leads the Dallas, 83-79, 9:22 left in the 4th.
Miami Heat:
posting a quality win over the Spurs today (though that would be dubious since Parker and Ginobili were out, Parker injured himself in the 1st Qtr.), the Heat or Dwyane Wade actually, have shown that they are back. At last, after the failure that is last season, Wade has come back with gusto. The insane shots, bankers, splits, sidesteps and jumpers are back, and it was fun to watch him kill the Spurs this morning.
i've seen Michael Beasley's game, and i have to say i was impressed. Shawn Marion is not really a fit into the Heat's style. I would like to him being moved for say, Al Harrington (who wants to be traded anyway), a player who can post up and hit the three-ball with ease. Marion is not really a half-court guy, and most of his success comes from running the break. Miami has not really been that set on running teams out of the building, but the versatility he brings is still valued by the team. I think that though he may not be viable on offense, defensively he should bring it for the team. the rebounds, blocks and steals that he can create can effectively lead into transition baskets which can bode well for Marion.
ultimately, the Heat must find success in defense to keep Marion happy. Otherwise, I'd like to see him be moved along with the large sum of money in his contract.
so there ends a blog entry for me. i hope my cpu would be back and that things go the way i would want them to. :D
Sunday, October 26, 2008
its nice to be back!
hindi naman sa nag out of town trip ako o kung anuman, pero isang malaking kaluwagan na umayos na ulit ang buhay ko ngayon. hahaha!!!
naka-XP na ulit ang pc, excited na akong mamili ng bagong parts pang upgrade rito. by grad gusto ko nang magpapalit ng pc. papabuo ako ng bago. hehehe!!!
masaya na ulit ang buhay. and it has rubbed off as well to the people around me. sana magtuloy-tuloy na ito. salamat ng marami Lord!!! :D
(salamat din sa yo. lalo na run sa 2x2 na bigay mo. wahaha!!)
naka-XP na ulit ang pc, excited na akong mamili ng bagong parts pang upgrade rito. by grad gusto ko nang magpapalit ng pc. papabuo ako ng bago. hehehe!!!
masaya na ulit ang buhay. and it has rubbed off as well to the people around me. sana magtuloy-tuloy na ito. salamat ng marami Lord!!! :D
(salamat din sa yo. lalo na run sa 2x2 na bigay mo. wahaha!!)
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