hmmmm

regret.

what is it? for me it is something which haunts us every day of our lives. we all make mistakes. and regret is a constant reminder that, we could have made or could have done something different with the situation.

kawawa naman ang bespren ko. she's stuck with me.

oh well.

balance

numb.

its a point people reach when they get used to certain situations and feelings, like suffering. You don't suffer your whole life. It just gets to the point where you get used to it, and finally, find solace or consolation amidst the pain.

i've reached the that point a long time ago. i'm not implying that i AM like that today, but i can assure you, i am on the way.

looking at what i have today from a 3rd person perspective, I found myself in a very familiar situation, although the roles got mixed up a little. i really have no idea how this is gonna conclude, but i am HATING EVERY SECOND OF IT.

"ayoko nang maulit pa, ang nakaraang ayokong maalala.."

bow.

screw me

screw me because i am weak
screw me because i am indecisive
screw me because i am selfish
screw me because i am afraid
screw me because i cannot stand up for what my heart says
screw me because i do not know what to do
screw me because i am immature
screw me because i have not learned my lessons...

and screw me for everything more... for everything i am... for everything i have failed to do...

screw me.

randomssssss

- nainspire ako na gumawa ng ganito kasi yung prof ko gumawa ng ganito sa blog nya. hahaha!!!
- nagkakaabs na pala ako. gawa ito marahil ng pagbabasketbol araw araw.
- mainit, mainit, at mainit!!
- talo cleveland nakakainis, pero ok lang, hahahaha!!!
- lapit na ulit magpasukan. kinakabahan ako. sumali na kaya ako sa org ngayong taon? haha!!
- ayoko ng sked ko, well, yung wed lang naman. hahaha!!!
- maraming magagandang pelikula ngayong 2007 (transformers, pirates, fantastic 4, shrek)
- masarap ang dsl, kaso boring kapag di mo nagagamit. di mo na alam pag gagamitan mo. hahaha!!!
- nahawa na ako sa bestfriend ko, mahilig na rin ako sa classical music ngayon.
- mahal na mahal ko bestfriend ko.
- lab na lab ko bestfriend ko. hahaha!!!
- may blog pa dapat akong gagawin pero, sa susunod na lang yun. yung 6 weird things chuvaness nila.
- ako;y nag-iisip kung gagawa ako ng multiply site. lahat kasi ng tao may multiply site na.
- maganda ba talaga ang boracay? lahat kasi ng tao todo post ng picture nila pag nasa boracay sila e. weird mas maganda naman sa puerto prinsesa at sa la union.
- di ko pa rin mabago yung kulay ng photo captions ko sa friendster.
- may pinagagawa na kaagad sa amin kahit di pa pasukan. mga prof sa amin talaga napakasabik!!!
- masarap ang may pasok. pasok=baon=pera

sana..

hooray for my 50th blog post!!!!

*palakpakan naman dyan!*

i suddenly discovered myself.. kasi maraming nangyari.
things like,
- napakamoody ko pala pag malungkot
- na kahit papano, marunong din pala akong masaktan, kala ko kasi ang kaya ko na lang gawin ngayon e manakit ng tao
- haha totoo pala na ang karma doble ang balik sa yo. *wa*

ano ba naaalala ko rito, hmmm, 4th year siguro. haha oh well kasalanan ko naman e. panindigan na lang natin. let us abide to the decisions of the authorities. hahaha....

sige kaya nyo yan. manonood na lang ako.

meron namang mag-aalaga sa yo o, ano pa papel ko sa buhay mo?

*broken hearted*

NBA FINALS NA!

nba finals na!!

rise up Lebron!!! rise up!!!!

yun lang...

bored

bored
bored
bored
bored
bored...

ala pa rin dsl namin, takteng yan. gusto ko na ng dsl! please naman!!!

ano pa ba, may papayuhan lang ako.

payo no.1: wag magpapa attach. kasi mahirap magdetach.
payo no.2: mahirap na pag na joketime ka. yari ka boy! nyahahaha!!!
payo no.3: mahirap yung ginagawa namin ngayon.
payo no.4: marami kami. hahaha!!!

at payo no.5: andito lang kami. lalo na ako.

kanta ko para sa yo: broken in silence (piano version) - silent sanctuary

ok ba? part 2 naman!

-part 2-

ikaw. miss na kita. hehe. tuwing nagtetext ka natutuwa ako. bigla kasi. haha. kahit papano pala buhay pa ako para sa yo. isa pa, salamat sa pag uukol ng kakarampot na oras mo para itext ko. kahit sandali lang yun masaya na ako na nakakausap kita. hehehehe..

as usual, mahal pa rin kita. di naman na nagbago yun e.

kate at jana, penge medal!!! hahahaha!!!! kailangan ko na ng loyalty award. hahahaha!!!

ingat ka lagi. good luck sa 3rd year mo.

galit na blog. hahaha!!!

OO GALIT AKO!! HAHAHA!!!

masama pala akong magalit. OA na sadista na di maintindihan. ngayon lang ako nagalit ng ganito. ngayon lang din ako nagkaroon ng ganito kalaking sama ng loob sa isang tao.

salamat sa yo.

oo, ikaw!! ikaw!!! kilala mo kung sino ka!!! hahaha!!! ikaw na walang konsiderasyon, ikaw na walang pakundangan sa mga pinag-gagawa mo sa buhay mo. hahaha ikaw!!! ikaw na nagpaiyak sa akin sa sobrang sama ng loob. oo ikaw yun.

itaga mo sa bato, masama ang loob ko ngayon. hahaha!!! ano bang pwede kong gawin sa yo ngayon? di ko alam. tinamatad akong mag isip...

o, masaya ka dapat ngayong araw na to!! nakita mo yung taong gusto mong makita!! AT HINDI AKO YUN!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

di ko alam, parang ansarap pumatay ng tao ngayon. ang sarap sarap. para lang marelease tong tension ko sa katawan. para akong si hisoka. hahaha!!! sana malakas din ako, para isang daliri lang ipampapatay ko. hahaha!!!

kahit papano pala may namana ako sa tatay ko.. yung pagiging tahimik. kaso, yung akin, tahimik lang pag may problema. hahaha!!! siguro masama yun, kasi mahirap ayusin kaagad yun. hahaha!!! kasi di alam nung tao na may problema ako sa kanya. hahaha!!!

ah oo nga pala, ako yung nang-gagago. HINDI IKAW!! HAHAHAHA!!! HINDI IKAAAAAAW!!!!!

ngayon lang ako nagalit ng ganito. hahaha!!!

(kasi nga, may mga bagay na di dapat pinapahawak sa ibang tao. di ba? respeto naman. hahaha!!! kaso wala e. hahaha!!! nadala ng bugso ng damdamin!!! ayun!!! hahaha!!!)

at walang halong malisya yung mga iniisip naming pinag gagawa nyo. hahaha!!! bakit? porke manyak ang pag iisip ko yun kaagad lalabas dahil nag isip ako? hahaha tigas mo talaga!!!! wag mo nga akong itulad sa yo. di tayo pareho mag isip no. naooverestimate nga kita e. hahaha!!!

pasalamat ka may mga taong katulad ni _____ at ni _____. haha kahit papaano uplifting sila. hahaha!!!!

lakas pala trip ko pag galit ako. yaan nyo na MINSANAN na lang to. hahaha!!!

tama na nga, baka may tamaan dyan e. hahahaha!!!! scrabble na lang tayo!! ano? game!!! hahaha!!!! asa! di ako mananalo sa mga taong katulad mo. hahahaha!!!

ika nga ng isang comersyal ng gobyerno, WAG TAYONG MAGPAGAGO!! Hahahaha!!!!

hoooo, ayan relaxed na ako. hahaha!!!

BASAHIN MO TO!! BASAHIN AT INTINDIHIN!! MAGKAKAROON TAYO NG MAIKLING PAGSUSULIT SA SUSUNOD NA PAGKIKITA!! nyahahaha!!!

ayan, finished!! ^_^

masquerades in full swing

maraming taong nahihirapang magkunwari. isa na ako run.

we all wear masks, either right now, or when we face our friends, or when we go out. We all wear masks. Sometimes masks fail, but then again the sense of concealment they give is enough security for people who don't want to expose themselves.

sa tuwing uuwi na lang, nahuhubad ng kusa ang maskarang sa aking mukha'y nakatapal nang parang mantel sa ibabaw ng lamesa. wahahaha!!!

heeeeeeeere she comes!! sunburn!!! matatapos na ang summer, dapat sulitin!!! haha!!!

damn ala akong pera.. wawa naman ako....

masarap magmahal, hehehe!!!

salamat sa panlilibre ni kate at jolo sa gateway nung miyerkules!!! yehey!!!! sa uulitin!!!!

nagugutom na ako, ala pa nanay ko... sheesh alang ulam!!!! waaaaaah!!!!!!

isa na lang, isang hirit pa. hahaha!!!! kailangang ilabas ko to baka kasi maging utot na lang to na walang kabuluhan at walang ibig sabihin....

may mga bagay kasing hindi dapat pinapahawak sa ibang tao.
tulad ng sanitary napkin. hahahaha!!!!

MAGKAKA DSL NA KAMI!!! YEHEY!!!!!

ISANG TAON

It's been a year. Ambilis. Tama nga hinala ko, lilipas na lang ang panahon na walang mangyayari. Hehe, wala rin naman akong pwedeng gawin e. All I can do now is watch, and wait. I hate waiting. It only wastes time. But life gives us things we can't rush. Ika nga nila, you don't jump unto the water if you don't know how to swim.

Ewan.

Yun na siguro ang pinakamainam na salita para sa akin ngayon. Ewan. Wala na akong alam. Nawiwindang na nga siguro ako. Di rin ako sigurado run. Ang lakas ng ulan. Hehe..

Wala na yung mga araw na hindi natatapos nang hindi ako napapaluhod sa sahig sa kakaiyak. Yung mga araw na pinipilit kong palipasin para dumating na yung panahong magiging maayos din ang lahat.. Mukhang na-writer's block yata ako. Di ako makapagsulat. Bakit kaya? Hehe. Alam nyo kasi, nakakapagsulat lang ako kapag malungkot ako o kaya pag masaya ako. Di na ako nag-iisip kasi pag nagsusulat. Kusa na lang syang umaagos, mula sa ulo, pababa sa mga braso ko, papunta sa kamay at lalabas sa daliri ko at sasalin sa kung ano mang ipinansusulat ko ngayon. Pero kakaiba tong ginagawa ko ngayon. Di naman sa di ako nagsusulat, pero nagtatype ako ngayon. Haha..

O di ba ang kyut ko magsulat? May nalalaman pa akong agos agos. Haha.. Lumabas na pala yung yearbook namin nung HS. Yung iba sobrang excited kinuha na nila agad yung sa kanila. Ano kaya nakasulat sa akin dun? Yun malamang ang nasa isip ng mga kumukuha ng yearbook nila ng hayskul. Para sa akin lang yun ah. Ewan ko lang sa ibang mga tao...

Masaya ako ngayon. Totoo yun.

It's not happiness that I wish, but peace of mind. One thing I learned watching Gundam Wing is that, in order to fight, you must have a reason for it. Whether it is to uphold your ideals, or protect someone you love, you do not go into a fight without reason, because you'd only die a dog's death. There will be days where I know where I'm going, and there were days where I don't. Its not that I can't make up my mind, its just that, in some way, reasons do not give enough initiative for you to make your move. Did I run out of reasons to continue? I don't know. Maybe reason wasn't enough to get myself moving to do something about it.. Or maybe I'm just stumped because I won't do anything, or CANNOT do anything. Anyhow, it all boils down to waiting. And more waiting. And some more waiting..

I envy old people. There are those who wake up every morning and tell themselves that they love their lives. Where the only thing they wait for is their date of death. Where everytime they think about their life, they find nothing else to wish for other than letting God take care of the people they love once they leave..

To love and be loved. I believe that the feeling of being loved by someone you love can be partially compared to living a fulfilled life. You get these happy mornings. You tend to like waking up and seeing the sun shine over your groggy face. And before going out of your bed, you tend to thank God because you were so happy that day. You do everything with a smile, you're more energetic, and if you're like me, you tend to love God more because of that.

I usually hide things to myself. And I don't usually open up to people. It takes a lot to get me out of my shell and let me talk. But then again, there are people who you meet who actually do a good job at making me talk. There was this one instance when I was talking to someone, and there I was, talking and talking and talking. The other end of the phone line was actually silent, which prompted the back of my head to think whether that person was actually listening or not. I asked if there was something wrong because of the silence.. She just said, "go on, keep talking, I just wanted to hear your voice..". At that exact moment I felt my heart drop to my stomach, which up to now is a mystery to me why it happened.

One year. Twelve months. Fifty-two weeks. Three hundred and sixty five days. Eight thousand and seven hundred sixty hours.

It's quite a long time. Enough time to keep myself pre occupied and happy with other people. Not enough time to find the answer though. An answer. Maybe that's what has been keeping me from finding peace of mind.. I don't like the idea of closure, but its the best thing I wish I had right now.

One sided love. Yup, it is painful.

ho-hum

Di ko alam kung serious ba tong iboblog ko o hindi.. hahaha!!!

ano nga bang nangyayari sa akin ngayon? hmmmm....

1. adik ako sa Hunter x Hunter at Gundam Wing at Shippuden. hahaha!!!!
2. 1-2 standing namin sa liga... sana maipanalo namin yung next game.. haha!!! sana wala nang mag-inarte!!! haha!!!
3. sira ipod ko... tsk... 2 weeks para lang ipaayos... hmf...
4. ok lang na masira ipod ko kasi may w700i naman ako!! YEHEEEEEY!!!!
5. miss ko na bestfriend ko.. nakakatuwa kasi pumupunta sya sa bahay para lang panoorin akong maglaro ng bbol.. hahahaha!!! nakakatuwa!!!! masayang summer kasama ang bestfriend kong si zoeeeeee!!! (kailangan ba talagang ilagay yung pangalan nya dito? para naman kasing di nila alam di ba? haha!!)
6. naiinis ako sikat na SS ngayon.. parang dati wala pa kaming 100 na fans.. hahaha...
7. miss ko na rin yung isang tao. hahahaha!!!!
8. nagugutom na ako...
9. ang gising ko lagi 9am or 10 na... huhu...
10. ayoko na magpuyat!!!

andyan na yearbook namin!!! yay!!! papakita ko sya sa bestfriend ko. hehehehe!!!!!

dito na lang muna!!!!

ciao!

If I wasn't so perverted...

I could've been gay right now.

And…

I wouldn't watch a lot of porn back in the day.

oh well, whatever. things happening around me right now:

1. heat. heat. white hot heat. No, not the Miami Heat (currently 0-2 against the Da Bulls) but the weather right now. Heat, heat and more heat. Sticks to your skin. Makes you wanna go to the beach. Makes you perspire. Makes you drink a lot. I drink a lot of Gatorade nowadays, water just doesn’t do for me now, makes me bloated.

2. currently engaged in an intense tooth and nail battle with rats and cockroaches. Ugh. Pests. Kill them all!!!!

3. obsessing over Hunter X Hunter all over again. And Gundam Wing. I have the whole series in delicious dvds. Hahahaha!!!

4. been playing a lot of basketball, Age of Mythology and Age of Empires 3 lately. Gotta have the Warchiefs expansion pack for AoE3.. Does anyone have that? Etimos!!! Hisboli!!!

5. some weird people leaving weird comments on my chat box. Not good. Definitely not good.

6. enjoying Naruto: Shippuden and loading songs unto my Ipod. Really good stuff indeed.

7. Election season in full swing. Suddenly we have a lot of people knocking at our doorstep asking us for their surveys and whatnot for (insert candidate’s name here)

8. I wanna swim. And I wanna go snorkeling. To the beach!!!!

9. Note to self: your bestfriend wants other things to do aside from watching movies. Go get her a cup of halo halo. And enjoy your summer together.

10. I love making my bestfriend really, very happy. Haha!!!

11. Looking forward to the block’s summer outing in May.

12. 300.. Spiderman 3.. Pirates of the Carribean: At World’s End.. Transformers the Movie… Shrek 3… Metal Gear Solid: The Movie… oh yes, lotsa movies. But MGS isn’t going to start shooting until 2008. And I heard Viggo Mortensen (Aragorn of LOTR) is Hideo Kojima’s pick to play the immortal Solid Snake. MGS isn’t going to be based from the games, but Kojima-san will be writing a new script and story.

13. I WANT A PLAYSTATION 3!!!! I WANNA PLAY METAL GEAR SOLID 4!!!!!

14. Em gonna get a new cellphone very soon!!! Yipeee!!!

15. It seems that both my younger sisters now have a monthly period. Ow. Uh oh.

That’s it for me. Till next time!!!! <('^')>

Of Clouds and Dreams

This is for my bestfriend. The one that brings out the best in me in everything that I do. The one that pushes me to do more, and achieve more. The one that picks me up when I’m down. The one who stuck it with me through everything. The one who saw me through all the lies and the deceptions. The one of the few people who knew the real me, and understood me well enough..

We go way back, to where all of this started. First year of college. By then I was just looking for someone I could ride the bus home with, since bus rides are very much boring unless you have something to do.. By a funny coincidence I met this small, weird girl with the big cheeks. She exhibited a very hostile aura, tipong kumakain ng tao. Haha!! (^_^) The air of intimidation surrounding this little girl was thick, but what I saw was, well, a glint of goodness in her. You can’t miss it really, that beneath those walls was a good person. I was wrong on two counts though. One is that, only a few can see what I saw in her, and second, she isn’t just a good person. She’s plain great. And she’s my bestfriend.. Lucky me..

By some way, even though it was against her will, we rode the bus home together. If my calendar was right, it was the 18^th of June. Saturday. Dun ako naging fans ng Hale, tapos napabili kami ng album nila. It was the first time na uuwi kaming magkasama, may pahabol na laboy pa. Hahaha!!! She originally lived in Las Pinas, but was displaced and now lives in Dasma, much against her will. She’s like an old tree uprooted from the land where she grew up. Kahit gaano kaganda ang lupa sa kabila, mamimiss mo pa rin yung lupang kinalakihan mo.

For the rest of our first year of college, we had fun. We talked and talked and talked some more inside the bus. We had fun. Suddenly bus rides were too short. We enjoyed each other’s company. She thanked me because adjusting to Cavite hasn’t been such a pain because of me (awwwww). We went to a lot of places, went to Las Pinas, I met a lot of her college friends, had a lot of adventures, toured manila, scoured divisoria and recto (naalala ko yung rosin, haha!) ate at a lot of places and basically had fun doing so much stuff. School stuff was good since we were always in a group. She can do a hell of a lot of things. She’s a good leader. She’s good at conceptualizing, and she’s great at finding those cute little stuff you usually overlook at the mall or in the internet. As the first semester was ending, I got to know a lot about her. How she was like in high school, what she wanted for her birthday, what she wanted in her life, how she feels about herself and about others, her work ethic, even on how smart she is. And of course her favorites. Food, music, clothes, anything and everything. I got to know her pretty darn well. We were comfortable with each other, something I didn’t envision the first time I had the guts to tell her that I needed someone who would like to take the bus home with me. We were polar opposites in a lot of ways, but somehow we didn’t collide and slit each other’s throats while we sleep. She was a great person and a greater friend. In some way I got a peek of what was behind those walls she put up on herself, and what I saw was good.

Second semester came, and we did what we always did: have fun together. Then September came, and while chatting the night away, I brought up the topic of us being bestfriends. She didn't like the idea since back then I already had another bestfriend. But I laid down all my cards, did everything I could, said anything that would make her give in..

Then at the wee morning of September 17, I got myself a new bestfriend.

It has been more than a year since that date. We've celebrated our anniversary, and countless other days. We've had fun and all that. But that doesn't mean we didn't have fights. Sure we had fights, little fights. Fights that go down the drain and last less than a day since it was so easy for us to make up and forgive each other. Then, 2nd year came. Our little fights became bigger, little arguments escalated quickly. There would be times that I'd threaten her to go home alone. Remarks I would love to take back. I said and did things which were unforgiveable. I couldn't wait for the year to end since all we had was bad luck. There were times that we wouldn't want to see each other because we would argue again. People around us started noticing that we would fight. There were nights where we would cry. She cries, I cry. Over the phone, in front of the computer, in the steps of our school building, even inside the bus. That year was hard, tough, painful and trying. But we never gave up on each other. 2007 came. I had to do something. I'm not going to allow shallowness to break down a year's worth of fun, laughter and love. Little by little I started doing things. Somehow, her trust, which my stupidity destroyed, was coming back. Step by step, we learned to trust each other again, understand each other again. In essence, we rediscovered each other. We started having fun again. It was relieving and at the same time, happy to see her smile. It's a great achievment for me to see her having fun again. I would never forget her birthday week. I've never seen her so happy. It was an achievement in my part. A little effort here and there certainly works wonders. That's what she taught me. She also taught me what I forgot to do a long time ago: being myself. For a time I wasn't me. She held my hand and we looked around and yes, i found myself again. I guess nobody's gonna appreciate how great of a bestfriend she is to me, since I'm not giving her up to anyone. Too bad for them. Again, lucky me..

The storm has passed.

We're back. We're in each other's arms. We're happy. We love each other to the ends of the Earth. We're having fun again. None of us really care about tomorrow, for what we have today is what's important. You can't change the past, nor the future, but you can do something about the present. That's what I'm doing right now. That's what I learned from being her bestfriend. I learned to nurture what is there and recover what was lost. I learned to believe. I learned to understand even more. It has been a long time since I accepted her, annd her weirdness. It has been a longer time since I've come to appreciate her shortcomings, since they provide me with the opportunity to help her, and become a better person myself. I love my baby beshie. I love her so much.. (^_^)

I wanted to do this for quite a while now, and since I'll be gone for a week, I'm gonna leave her something she'll read and be happy about. I've been saving all of my appreciation for this one. I hope you find it a happy read.. And if ever you forgot how much I love you, just take a look at Cloud, and give him a big hug. Then play Panaginip and Kismet in your computer. They'll make you remember..

*huggy hugs for my princess*

BUSY!

elibs tong prof ko.. hahaha!!! circa 1970 something to tignan mo naman yung kulay... wahahaha!!!!

finally, the 2nd year of my college enters its home stretch... and i am fucking busy!!!! fucking busy man!!!

no sleep!
no eating!!
no play!!!!
no... money!!!!!!
no relaxation!!!

yup this is the UP life... but i guess, life doesn't stop even if you wanted it to. So I go on with my life right now, finish this blog post and continue what I need to do.

two speeches
one fucking hard paper
one simple assignment which i couldn't find
one or two final exams i haven't started studying yet

zero hours of sleep tonight.

nice stats man. I hope I have Dwyane's stats before he got his arm pulled off.. They're nicer.. Get well soon man, the Heat need you.


the Toronto Raptors are bound for the playoffs this April.. I love Chris Bosh. The first time I saw him on TV Vince Carter was still his team mate and he hit a game winning three ball.

I both love Brandon Roy and Adam Morrison. But the 'Stache is a lock for ROY because Bargnani is out indefinitely after undergoing appendectomy this morning.

Dallas and Phoenix. I love Dirk. I hate Dirk's homeboy Steve Nash. The guy's good. I just hate him. Maybe its his habit of licking his palms while playing...
They're going to slug it out for the best record. Well, unless Manu and Co. do something about it.

Gil-Zero is the man you want to watch on YouTube. Or maybe hop on to nba.com and read his blog.

so there... fucking busy me...

yota!!

wow an update from me...

it has been thoroughly busy this time of the year.. lotsa finals.. lotsa paperwork to do... i do hope i finish in time..

just got a new ipod. goodie!

me and my bestfriend are finding new ways to enjoy and be happy...

i want money.. for my nike apparel and 1 GB of ram for the pc....

i want to swim.... missing my pe class....

summer is here... do i get a summer job? nah.. i'm gonna work out on my game... mas masarap magbasketbol no...

did a great job on my bestfriend's birthday week... whew!

i do hope all is well for everyone i know....

toodles....


p.s. i love my bestfriend.. ^_^

GIRLS! GIRLS! GIRLS!

haha.. i am in the mood to blog. And what I am going to write in here isn't for you to laugh at, nor for you to scrutinize and analyze. It is a personal whim of mine. So bear with me. ^_^

t'was one wee sunday afternoon, with me trapped in the mall with nothing to do except have a text marathon with my bestfriend. We talked the usual, until we went to the topic of, well, the women of my past. Oh yes, marunong naman magkagusto sa babae si rc. Pramis. ^_^

From there, my bestfriend asked me to enumerate qualities of theirs which well, one hasn't. Its kinda complicated, because there is this one trying to get in the elite echelon of the women whom have made me fall in love with them. Ayun, so ako naman isip-isip kung ano nga ba meron sila.. And I found quite a lot of funny things about them. haha!!!

all right then, here goes!

there's 3 of them. and all of them are or have:

- seen me cry
- held telethons with me (min. 4hrs)
- heard me sing
- went to my house
- played basketball with me
- their own special song that I dedicate to them up to this day
- held endless text marathons with me
- pictures with me (and i have pictures of them)
- have been asked by yours truly of the "spectacular question" <- super secret question i only ask to girls i like
- received at least 2 gifts from me
- received a Christmas greeting from me
- received a New Year's greeting from me
- received a birthday greeting from me
- received I love you's and i love you so much's from me
- known by my family
- a special nickname for me
- have been treated by me several times
- have received "pasalubong" from.. who else? ME!
- have seen the "dark side of rc fajardo"
- made me appreciate my religion more :)
- at some point, became my “bestfriend”
- at some point, left me

they also:
- know what my favorite food is
- are not killjoy (minsan lang!)
- love mushy movies
- love to read
- have been courted by a lot of boys
- have rejected a lot of boys
- have had their first loves before I came along
- are not interested in video games
- are active in extra curriculars
- are intelligent
- are creative
- are sweet
- are thoughtful
- are always smiling
- are good looking :D
- can be arranged according to color (go figure! Haha!)
- know me pretty darn well
- make me do their bidding (slave kuno)

meron pa!
- nakawalking trip ko na
- nakasama na sa bus pauwi
- right handed silang lahat
- taga Cavite silang lahat
- ayaw nila ng morbid violence (i.e. Saw, 300, Kill Bill)
- mahilig sila kumain
- nakapunta na ako sa bahay nila
- lahat sila below 5'3" ang height (^_^)
- extroverts sila
- AYAW nila ng math at chem
- studious (by my standards naman)
- makulit
- hmmm, may valedictorian, salutatorian at 1st honorable mention! (jackpot!)
- ayaw umarte, in short, tropang backstage
- nakasakay na rin ako sa mga sasakyang pag mamay-ari nila :)
- inis na inis sa akin nung di pa nila ako kilala
- naSILIPan ko na silang lahat >:) (silip lang! PROMISE!)
- mayroon akong picture kasama sila sa kanilang living room
- lahat ng mga kapatid nila kilala ako
- nabigyan na ako ng letter at least twice
- ayaw magpapisil sa akin
- nakita ko nang naka gown
- may 2nd flr ang mga bahay nila
- unang hinanap sa aming bahay: CR
- may special and memorable moment sila sa kwarto ko.. wahahaha!!!
- malakas mantrip
- mahilig mang gago
- malalambing ^~^
- religious
- nakapag rant na sa akin! wohooo!!!

wah marami pa to e.. Just check on my blog every now and then to see if there is anything new. What I do know is this, I loved them all very much. Sana maayos pa ang kalagayan nilang lahat. Lalo na si…. Ummmmmm… hahahaha!!! Go figure!! ^_^

An Angel

Now Playing: An Angel - Typecast

Life's been pretty fast right now.. So much to do, so little time. It seems that you can't squeeze in things like this, typing in front of the white space allocated in your window.

In the whirlwind of life, I realized it is important to find people who are willing to be your company, for when the best moments come, it would be nice if there were people standing beside you experiencing the same moment that you did. That's what friends are for, right? They're the people who tag along your journey in your life and share with you the best, and the worst moments.

I'm kinda not in the mood to write. I dunno. Must have lost it along somewhere. Or maybe, I need that melancholic mood again somehow. Kailangan bang maging malungkot ako para lang makapagsulat? Di naman siguro. I liked the Manila Collegian pin. Its about writing. That writing is not a sanctuary, for it was a choice from the beginning. I agree, penning down your thoughts is a choice from the start. Kasi marami namang iba pang mga avenues to express yourself with. There's art, violence, games and a whole lot more. So right now, I am woefully trying to write some sense into this. Maybe I shouldn't expect too much from me. Magaling naman daw akong magsulat. Sana nga. Refer to the older posts to see me in my best. haha!

Life has given me so much right now. Sure I have a lot of problems to confront like school, social life, money, time, expectations and a myriad of other ones, but in return I get this bunch of people who I seemingly have nothing in common with, and together we pass through life and in the end I call them my friends.

I love being with them. Kahit mga gago sila, ok lang gago rin naman ako e. Kanya kanyang trip lang yan. hahaha!!!

Ang post na to ay partially para sa the FIRM at para kina miko, xtian, ryan, michael at peter. Mga tsongs masarap mabuhay pag kayo ang karamay. hahahaha!!!

This post is pretty non sensical, again brought about by my inability to write and because I really don't know what to say.


Well, I could say I'm happy right now. Me and my bestfriend are in the road of happiness right now. In spite of all of what has happened, we are still here. I love you so much beshie!! You bring out the best in me. :D

And then there was you. Yes, you. You know who you are. Thanks for everything. ^_^

Doraemon. et al.

Hello! Kumusta ang valentine's day ninyo?

ako ok lang! hehehe!!! nagustuhan ng bestfriend ko yung buto (kasi nga aso sya dati, e ang aso gusto talaga ng buto) nakabili ako sa istarbak for the first and ONLY time. hahaha!! ayoko na bumili sayang lang pera ko. Kung di lang kasi valentine's day e.

Kung saan saan din ako nakarating nung valentine's day. Overall masaya sya kasi kasama ko bestfriend ko.

Nasa rob din pala si rossann. Asows. hahaha!!!

O mga bata, simula na ng Naruto Shippuden. 1hr special ang unang episode kaya nood na!!! hehehe!!!

ayokong bumili ng dvd ng doraemon. nakakatakot daw yung boses nya sabi ni dana. Sana may ilabas na compilation, yung tagalog. hahaha!!!

today marks the 17th month of our bestfriendship with my lovable bestfriend. Caz, pupunta ako sa bahay nyo mamaya!! blog lang ako konti ha! ^_^

parang gusto ko ng yellowcab. tsaka gusto ko ng rollback sa unlimitxt service ng globe. kupal naman kasi yung ginawa nila.

naisip ko lang, kailangan ko lang ng 50k para sa mga luho ko. maliit na halaga lang yun o. hehehehe!!!!

sa mga mababait dyan, donate naman kayo ng ipod sa akin. hehehehe!!! pabirthday at pa xmas nyo na. wahahahaha!!! para may silbi yung bulsa sa bag ko na lalagyan ng music player.

ang kyut kyut nung pasabit sa cellphone na nailaw na bigay sa akin ng bestfriend ko. ^_^

bago ^_^

Wow. Antagal ko na palang di nagblog. Yung mga iba kasing post babuy baboy dahil sa dami ng ginagawa. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang pagiging UP ko. Wahahaha!!! Dedz ang magpahinga kaya dapat laging on the go.

So eto after ng department week (na mejo enjoy naman) magboblog na ulit ako. namiss ko naman ang magsulat e, tinatamad nga lang ako magsimula. :D

Anu ba ikukwento ko? La naman masyado. Tignan nyo na lang yung speech ko para sa Comm3 namin.

Impromptu sya. 4-6 mins. Bunutan ng topic tapos 5mins para i organize lahat ng sasabihin mo. Sabi ko gusto kong matapos sa 1st day pero ang nangyari ako ang pinaka unang nagsalita. Buhay nga naman. So eto yung speech ko. As I remember it.

BTW maayos na pc ko. May NBA Live 07 na ako, Sudeki, at Suikoden. Ayaw talaga gumana nung Prince Of Persia buset. Naka Mozilla Firefox na rin ako. Buti na lang.

Adik din ako ke Doraemon. ^_^

eto na speech ko. read till you laugh.

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I LEARNED IN LIFE

I spent my 5 minutes outside the room reflecting upon my life, trying to pick out amongst the myriad of the things I have learned the most important ones. It was difficult to single out one so what I'm gonna tell you right now will be the first one right off my head. Kinda stupid right? Don't worry, it's not going to boring at all.

In the 18 years of existence here on Earth, I've essentially learned two things. One is always to be myself at anything that I do. I haven't been myself for quite a long time. Its been bothering me and my bestfriend for a long time now. I don't know how I lost myself in the process but somehow, I gave in and let society take over of my identity. Something that you don't always do in your life. My bestfriend accepted me as I am, the perverted, maniacal and very annoying me. Its not safe to say that by allowing society to manipulate your identity you avert a lot of problems. Sometimes it works the opposite way. My bestfriend and I are in the middle of a fight right now so please bear with me if I break down into tears in front of you.

The people around you do have an effect in your personality, but ultimately it is up to you to decide what you will become in the future. As for me, I have my own goals, which I know how to get and when to get them. Life stops when you stop dreaming, so for everyone of us in this room, let us not forget why we are still here, becuase of our dreams and aspirations, and let us not forget why we are in this university, because we know we can fulfill our dreams with its help.

The second thing I would like to share with you is, never let fear get the most of you. For once fear takes control of you, it becomes a very formidable wall to overcome, sometimes too much for people. Always be a step ahead. We all have our own personal fears, but my piece of advice for you is to just do it. Fear of failure is your fear already gripping you. And the only way to overcome it is to face it head on. Easy to say but hard to do. It has and it will bring out the best in us, for like gold and iron ore, it must past first through fire in order to bring out its inner beauty. Well, my time is almost up, so to sum it all up, always be yourself in whatever you will undertake and do not let fear get the best of you, but rather let it bring out the best in you. Good Morning. ^_^

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so that's it. yun na yung speech ko, medyo edited yan kasi di naman photographic memory ko. Pero yun na yun. hehehe!!!

i love my bestfriend. She brings out the best in me. ^_^

debate.. debate.. debate...

antagal ko na palang di nagboblog.. hehe di ko na magalaw sa dami ng ginagawa ko...

well eto na naman, speech na naman para sa debate. tama ba yun? ok lang sana kung di inatake ng topak yung kalaban namin at yung committee na in charge e. POTEK!

so ayun, buhay pa naman ako at masaya. yun muna..

mahal na mahal ko ang bestfriend ko.

^_^