freaky

Now Playing: Typecast - Scars of a Falling Heart

Its already december 9 and I haven't got out and do my christmas shopping..

well, I already planned it on the next saturday, which is december 16th, which coincidentally is the 1st day of the Simbang Gabi. And Nicole's birthday. Wonder if I can call in the States to greet her personally... Well since I don't know how to dial for international phone calls, might as well scratch that.. haha!!

I went to Dasma yesterday to enjoy the fiesta. Thanks a lot to Ruthy for giving us the food we have been raving about since we were in Manila. Haha!!

I'm pretty much freaked out right now. Maybe I'm just nervous. No, maybe anxious is the correct term. I'm gonna be somewhere in december 20, where hopefully a lot of questions will be answered.. I know its not going to be a picture perfect day because there are too many factors to consider. And to tell you the truth, I really don't know what to say when that day comes. Heck, I don't even know if I am going or not..

Is half a year really that long? You know, long enough to erase your existence.. Everytime I think about it, I feel that I just met her for the first time. Kala ko talaga di ko na sya kilala.. Which is bad, since it becomes an impediment in my thought construction. Di mo alam kung ano sasabihin kasi nga di mo na kilala.. Bad trip....

I really hate my 18th year. A lot has gone wrong since my birthday. Its killing me. haha!!
Maybe I should use my birthday as an indicator on how my year will progress. Feeling ko tuloy nahawa ako sa beshie ko, pero pag pinag-isipan ko, oo nga ang bagong taon ko nagsisimula rin pala sa birthday ko. On my next birthday I am going to be happily celebrating, so that my year would be better than this... Or better yet, I should wish to have a better birthday next year...

Really I am freaked out.

random things about me lately:
- just finished monk and the simpsons season 7. Am trying to find new dvds to watch
- i am angry at my mother for bringing up a pathetic excuse not to buy me a new phone
- still trying to think of what to give to the people this xmas
- wanting to go to tower records and grab the Typecast cd, and Incubus, and Sandwich, and Dashboard Confessional, and Silent Sanctuary, and Sugarfree, but no money.. Damn!
- still trying to think what to write in the letters I will give this xmas
- just fed myself to the lions as I recently volunteered to partake in a debate about homosexual marriage rights
- will participate in 2 debates this sem, no plan to expand that, but hey, its a great exercise for my comm3 class
- am trying to get over her, uhh not really. just trying to get over my fear of public speaking
- am learning to organize thoughts while speaking in front of the public
- still no orgs for me (mabait akong bata!)
- so happy that the Naruto fillers end in Feb as confirmed by Shonen Jump! (finally! something to look forward to next year!)
- preparing for med school by studying the brain
- am totally nervous for december 20!
- formulated the name of our college barkada, THE FIRM. Yes to UP TFI! nyahaha!!!

kudos to all of us in THE FIRM! we went neck-to-neck with the best and we bested our expectations! haha!!

too bad Sir Ramota didn't really get what we meant regarding the TFI and commercialization.. HINDI NAMAN KASI SILA SAME WAVELENGTH E!!!! /gg na lang! ^_^