the idea for this blog come to me when i was strolling down the mall with my bestfriend. after reading the WWE:UNscripted book (a book which suddenly, i am dying to buy), a certain type of inspiration began to dawn upon me. somehow, it is compelling me to write something, something that inspired. something that would uplift someone who is down, agitated, or maybe worn-out with their day-to-day routine.
i wanted to write something that could be a source of comfort, or maybe even inspiration. maybe this would be it.
a few days ago, as i was thinking of what to blog next, i began toying with the idea of finding the philosophical, or maybe inspirational, substructures of my everyday routine. or even my everyday life.
today, i watched a certain movie about a french cooking rat, from which came this strong line:
"you can't change nature son..
but dad, CHANGE IS NATURE."
change. a lot of us fear it. some of us welcome it with open arms. i think the way we perceive change really depends on what it gives us. for example, an unwelcome change would really be worse received than say, a new and interesting hobby, which is a welcome change from the drag of monotonous living.
of course, like everyone else, we want to develop our lives to the fullest and enjoy living them, thus we pray for better changes. but sometimes, or even most of the time, change brings to us a new adversity to overcome. a change of address, displacement from your former habitat, a new character entering the scene, all of these for me account that type of change.
i can't really summarize my life right now. so much is going on. some things go bad, others become good all of a sudden. sometimes i unconsciously aggravate the situation. most of the time though, i come to the conclusion that i don't really know what to do and what i am doing at the present.
there would be days where i pray to the Lord to give me a clean slate. you know, there would come a point in your life when you'd probably say to yourself, "nah, i don't have any problem as of the moment", and then you'd realize that you should be enjoying that point in your life because you don't really know what's going to happen next.
the sad truth about it was, by the time you've realized that you didn't actually relish that point in your lifetime, you've actually been cornered by all the demons of your past.
too late. sorry.
that's how my life has been. its not exciting, but not exactly dull.
this isn't the inspirational crap i was supposed to write, but then again, i don't really have a standard to follow when it comes to all things "motivational'.
it this just a random burst of thoughts caused by venting out the supposed "anger" down another avenue? maybe so. i AM in the mood to write right now. maybe i'm just too happy.
i just wanted to write something that would put a smile into anyone who reads this.
lemme see, i don't like writing long, dragging stuff. i too read blogs, and blogposts which are really long annoy me. c'mon, you're not writing a novel are you? (not referring to anyone. *ehem*)
"do you have a person who you want to be beside with when the world ends?"
i love this question. lucky for me i do have a person in mind. i think having someone who you treat to that regard is kind of like setting a long-term goal. and long-term goals need a lot of work and time to be achieved. its like earning your first million. its like graduating from your dream course. its like buying your first car, or maybe having your first child.
there's nothing more rewarding than planning ahead and watching your plans come to life the way you imagined it to be. take it from me. i've gone that far into my life.
there came a time where i really couldn't wish for anything more. i had that person. then everything else followed. everyday i wake up, i thanked the Lord that i had that person. Otherwise, i wouldn't enjoy my life as it is.
i would not love anyone else the way i had loved her.
there, i said it. its the clincher. the answer to a question that sometimes i find myself asking. would i find someone better than her? maybe. but then that isn't her. it's definitely not the same. i get annoyed with people looking for others expecting them to give the kind of experience they have had before. that's pushing it too much. every person is unique. and i believe each and every one of us has that person.
the only difference would be the rate in which we accept the fact that he/she is that person.
then comes the hard part, getting him/her to believe... to believe that he/she is that person.
is this a blog of true love? maybe so. or maybe this is just one of the musings of someone who has really nothing much to do and is getting bored to death.
my left index finger hurts. anyway,
its the believing part that's hard to do. that's where most of the hard work goes.
there was a time when my person believed in what i was saying. but then again, maybe she came to her senses. maybe she'd seen enough. maybe i was just one of the jerks who schemed in breaking her fragile heart.
i dunno. really. i've paused looking for answers, relying on the assumption that the answers would come to me one day. or maybe, one day we could be back together again.
it's really confusing, when you don't want to let go of someone who you truly loved, although that someone sees you as nothing more. nothing more than, nah, you already know what i'm talking about.
what's on my mind today:
50% school, 50% random whatnots.
i should finish it here, coz i don't really know what i've been talking about.
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